In a second.

In a second.

For over a year they are your FRIENDS even FAMILY but in a second its all gone.

I was always their baby , their younger sister and now everything change. I was nobody. I was always the person who is outcast, with friends date even our friends birthday celebration. No one would even text me if I won't be the first one to do it. I just do not know what happened.

I feel like is all coming back to highschool wherein I need to stand up, talk loud for others to see me more. I am tired of being that person. I wasn't suppose to be like this.

There are great changes that happened in my life even with myself. The first is makeup, I said to myself before that I won't put some but now I need it. I cross through the boundary of my ability but I guess its not enough because I was not this person. This is all about your persona to other people.

I want people to see me always as a loud jolly, outspoken , talkative person  not a person who would put on some headset and imagine her life in a different way. But somethings always wakes me up and that is reality. That I need to do it for the people around to notice me because if I don't I will be nobody.

I wish everything would come back to the same place wherein I have friends and family that truly is with my side not just in Facebook liking my pictures.